masochism

It is both strange and real how easily a pain can cause pleasure. It doesn't have to be in big amounts, it can only be some very small ordinary pain that you no longer perceive it like that, but just as a source of pleasure ... it might be that sometimes you see it rationally and still don't feel that it is pain that is causing you one small pleasure or another ... or you end up in a confusing corner where neither pain or pleasure can be distinguish by your mindset, a confusion that might grow to real masochism. A daily small pain that it's not in your power to eliminate from your life, or at least you think it's not in your power ... and to protect yourself from that feeling of pain in your daily life sometimes you learn to enjoy it in order to have positive feelings in your life.